There was this boy who I had what seemed like the biggest crush on. We went to the same school and he was my best friend’s older brother so I saw him quite often. I wasn’t shy or timid about how I felt about him and always made it a point to tell him and give him the flirtiest of looks. As many times as I felt like I was throwing myself at him he never seemed to care or show interest. I could never tell if he was just shy or didn’t care for me at all. This went on for about two years.
Eventually I got tired of pursuing him since it seemed as tho he didn’t want me so I tagged out and found interest in someone else. We started dating officially and not even a whole week went by before I received a phone call from the boy I swore I was in love with for the whole two years prior. It was odd because he’d never called me on his own. I answered and with a sad and worried voice he said to me “How could you do this to me? How could you go and date him? Don’t you know I’m in love with you?!”. Flabbergasted I said to him “But you never told me that. You never even showed me any kind of love or any signs that you even liked me. All I ever did was throw myself at you and you always curved me.”. He didn’t say much other than repeating himself about how much he cared about me and how hurt he was.
By that point I had already started something new with someone else and couldn’t turn back. It was nice to know that he really did care and really did have feelings for me all along but it was too little too late. He still contacts me every now and then to this day just to check on me and see how i’m doing and let me know he still cares for me.
I’ve come to realize that we missed out on the one opportunity we had and that considering all the growing up and moving on that we’ve done we will most likely never get that back. I’m ok with that.
In some cases if you don’t act on your feelings and make it known to the people you care about that you want them to stick around they wont. They’ll move on and you’ll lose them.